Just the BEST day!!  Even saw a double rainbow!!  Must say....life is wonderfully challenging. And today was a mixture of blessings and lessons....sunshine and potential hazardous rain. However, when you're in the flow, you always gravitate to which way YOU should go to help YOU grow. And there would be the lesson of the day:

There are always those who want YOU to bless THEM. But when do YOUR blessings come? When YOU decide. When YOU decide that things MUST change. When YOU decide that you won't do the same ole thang. When YOU decide to not put yourself on hold. When YOU decide to go for YOUR gold. When YOU decided to deal with those who appreciate and reciprocate what you have to offer and not just take to ingratiate their own "movement." Funny...how is it others call it a movement when THEY want YOU to "move" it for them?! Cars run on gas that takes money. Yet EYE supposed to push someone else for FREE or mere pennies while putting my much greater talent on hold?!! WAAAAAAAAKE UUUUUUUUUUUPPPPP!!! (my muse told me...and EYE listened...and been thanking her ever since!!!)

Just saying....you can't grab YOUR brass ring with everyone else in front of it trying to grab it for themselves and using YOU as leverage. You live and learn....and then you ascend/graduate to the next level. And it's amaaazing the blessings you'll find that were waiting just...for...YOU. But note: like moths to a flame, pests will come to distract and subtract. And the ONLY thing they ever add to is your lack. So let them fall back as you keep rising higher and higher on YOUR flight and journey. And note: Everyone is not meant to be on that journey with you....and you owe NO ONE a hand up on YOUR journey...especially when you need both hands and arms yourself to fly. Ever seen an Olympic swimmer or gymnast carry someone on their back while they performing their feat?! Was Jesus carrying hoarders on his back while turning water into wine?! My point!!

Lightening the load...lightening the drama....discarding the baggage and every that doesn't ADD to my life and serves only to subtract my time for nothing to be gained but pain and more lessons that EYE have already learned. Miracles take focus. Get that dead weight OFF your back and focus on YOUR shit!!

One thing about being brilliant....you don't repeat the same ole classes. 
Proved...Proven...and Proving!!

P.S. And isn't my new haircut just da SHIT?!!  YUP!  Lightened my head from a lot of "dead ends" too...literally.  Feeling FREE!!

Shine ON Stars....FOR YOURSELVES!!! 


Ever wake up and feel like a brand NEW you?! Almost to the point of it's scary?! Lots of fresh ideas in my head....lots of cobwebs cleared....lots of "what was EYE thinking" and "man, ain't nobody got time for that shit" going on....lots of "EYE should have done this a loooong time ago"....lots of "well, it's OBVIOUS no one's not gonna do it for ya...so STOP doing it for THEM and do it for YOURSELF"....lots of "Chick....YOU DA SHIT!! YOU BETTA TAKE THIS BALL AND RUN WITH IT! THIS IS "YOUR" BALL AND "YOUR" TIME." 

EYE don't know exactly who this new person is....but EYE LIKE HER!! Still trying to figure did EYE wake UP with a tumor or wake up WITHOUT one. Either way, WE going Nature Walking for some fresh air and taking this directly to the Source for further clarity and confirmation. New ME to match the New Moon. WITH IT!!! 


P.S.....and just saying....

They wanted me to be like them...because they couldn't be like me. But they...were irrelevant to the BIGGER picture. And EYE knew...EYE was vital to a much BIGGER and VIABLE connection. Born and trained for the role. Self-consciousness FULLY aware. Divinely programmed. Fueled by experience. Seasoned by tests. 
And distractions removed. Engage....NEW MATRIX. NO adverse agents with agendas that vary from primary program allowed. #POW


What EYE DO like: Folks who talk about business and ACT upon it, not BS'ing or trying to blow smoke up my ass....AND PAYING ON TIME!  Note: EYE might have been born at night, but not LAST night. (Well, actually EYE wasn't born at night at ALL and that's perhaps a bigger point. But EYE digress to progress....)

What EYE DON'T like: Folks who want you to put THEIR stuff as priority without any paper and expecting you to spending priority time on "illusionary" like you have nothing else better to do. Even worse, they want YOU to put YOUR REAL SHIT on hold for theirs, like whenever THEY "make it" (code phrase for when YOU "make it" FOR them), it's all gonna be good and you'll be squared away. HOW MANY TIMES DOES THAT REALLY HAPPEN?! Wait for it....wait for it...wait for it....my point. Tested the theory enough times to give you actual factual and consistent results....NONE!!

NOW, that being said....Da Oracle loves her fun and will do a lot of stuff out of "love." BUT the ONLY thing EYE'm doing out of "love" and for free on THIS JOURNEY is for ME...because EYE knoooow where the "pay off" is coming from. And even what EYE "appear" to be doing just for "fun," has a "marketable" value to it. EYE have a vision...and a goal. And EVERYTHING EYE DO has a purpose for ADDING to my life; NOT subtracting!! NO, EYE don't put MY shit on hold for ANYONE else EVER again. NO...EYE don't put YOUR shit above MINE unless you're paying BIG BUCKS NOW and the check has CLEARED!! And even THEN, it's doesn't take up the majority of my time. Again, EYE have MY goals and visions to work on. And those WILL be done. 

NO...EYE don't need some insecure jealous "crab-in-a-barrel" ego-maniacal ass in my camp who feels like what EYE'm doing is taking away from them and they want ME to help THEM get over FIRST while they climb MY back to "fame and fortune" land....OR acting like they're trying to do ME a favor by giving me some token "handout" when EYE'm the one who's expected to be Cinderella and send THEM to the ball for the bigger prize and big dance on MY efforts while, once again, EYE "bow out" and refuse to meet the "Prince" myself. WTF?! OR someone who's selling one of those "pie-in-the-sky" stories of fame and glory and LOTS of money that's gonna come "one day" like the land of milk and honey in "heaben." NUKKA...THOSE TRUSTING DAYS OF "SWEET WORDS WITH NO SUBSTANCE OR FACTUAL PROOF AND PROVEN BANK STATEMENTS ARE OVA!!" EYE'M LIKE JERRY MAGUIRE: SHOW ME THE MONEY!! If not, take a bow and have several seats! And watch a pro at work...from a distance!!

P.S. And if you come at me on some BS business tip just because someone LESS experienced and LESS intelligent and LESS credible "fucked you over" YET you paid them well...AND you expect to hold ME accountable and shortchange ME because of YOUR error, know this: EYE WILL CHARGE YOU DOUBLE JUST FOR THE INSULT!! EYE COME WITH RESUME, REFERENCES AND RESULTS! PAY OR BEGONE!! Honestly...can't miss nothing or what you never had. And EYE'm not desperate for nonsense and "non cents."

With that being said (consider it my weekly "business enema" session where sometimes you just need to flush that shit out your system and keep it moving...emphasis on KEEP IT MOVING), back to happy thoughts and happy vibes. Weekends were made for Michelob...and occasionally fun and PRIORITY finance and the fam that makes you smile the most. The rest...can wait. Got some LIVING to do. Just saying....life is short. And EYE'm look at EVERY day as one to enjoy....ESPECIALLY my weekends. And unless it's BIG DOLLARS on the line NOW to pay my bills NOW, it can sit and chill like tomorrow's leftovers. IJS Just because it's YOUR priority doesn't make it mine! Relevance has an order.

Alright...nuff talk. EYE got some miracles to create and some money to make. And it's CLEARLY apparent the only way to do is to do it MYSELF since folks always want YOU to do the work but take a bow to their nonsense.

And STILL they don't know me. Ahhhh....but they WILL. Keep watching...or not! And thanks for the inspiration. EVERYTHING is used as fuel these days. EVERY thing. 

Hmmmm....and wondering....Is this one of those "time of the month" rants that seems to have coincided with the fact that my menopause is STILL in "perimenopausal" stage?! Naaah....that's just me being ME. Still...think EYE'll go make some brownies. Feeling the need for some chocolate. LOL


On another note: EYE guess the "forest fire" did give me a light after all. "Smokey" saying thanks. LOL #privatejoke

Happy Pesach!!  In celebrating this last day of Passover and exiting out of a very weary "Egypt," EYE leave some parting words as a new chapter begins and an ole one ends.  And YES...it's going in the book.  But here's a sneak preview:

It has never failed to annoy and amaze me how people who HAVE the money (political candidates, businesspeople, promoters, club owners, etc) will always expect a professional like me to do something for them FREE....then will pay an unqualified person to do what EYE do...get a half-ass job done (or not at ALL) with minimal to NO results...THEN come back to ME to STILL want ME to do it for free or give them a cut-rate deal that's mere pennies in MY pocket and NOTHING compared to the idiots they paid before!

So because YOU did an "idiot" move by hiring an idiot, EYE'm suppose to incur the cost of your idiocy AND the idiot you hired and PAID because....because....because?  And THAT'S when it gets REALLY convoluted.  You get answers like, "Well, I know it's what you do and it's like nothing for you" OR "Well, I figured you could use the help so I'm willing to throw a few dollars your way" (Like YOU are doing ME the favor.  WTF?!)  For the record, FOOL....EYE AIN'T NO HO!!  And MY work equates MORE than a few shakes around a polefor a poor-ass mentality "fake pimp" who thinks a drink and a burger makes up for a "consultation" session.

My passion and compassion have always been a "detriment" to me in business.  EYE have always said that EYE am more of a "creative" mind than business.  NOT that EYE can't BE "business."  But my focus is on the creative side...and making sure YOUR business gets the promotion it should.  The irony that EYE would put others' business needs before my own is a challenging contradiction of sacrifice/survival.  Tested the theory.  It's NEVER works.  Especially when you have too much heart.  You try to give people a "break"...just to, in turn, have their callous crooked insecure jealous arrogant idiotic insane (Where da hell YOU learn business from?!  ARROGANT DUMMIES ARE US?!!) ways nearly break YOU.  As a woman in business, you're either gonna be called a bitch or a ho.  Or maybe even both.  Some might have "tried" to pimp me into the role of "ho."  But they found out quickly the the little "Phoenix Fish Oracle" quickly turns into "Dark Phoenix" and a craaaaazy arsenal of "bitch fires" in my bag.  Very adaptable to ANY situation and ever replenishing.  Oh YES....EYE've got flames of pains and sub-machine gun lyrical and spiritual voodoo bullets for EONS to pull from and could STILL have enough in my arsenal for 10 more life times.  Don't let the smile and friendly eyes fool you.  They're being held by back a consciousness that realizes most people don't know what or who they're dealing with...until it's too late.

That being said....this constant "holding back" and constantly wondering WHY too many people do the completely insane, inhumane, non-professional, idiotic, nonsensical, self-sabotaging things they do was getting waaaaay too much and putting an impossible weight on my already heavily-weighted down shoulders.  EYE was being buried by the bullshit and the depression...much of it which was mine to have.  This thing about "our people" and "our community" was clearly becoming evident to be nothing more than a myth and illusive dream in my head.  "Our" community and "our" people were not "MY" people.  They had not been for a loooooong time.  These were merely the same folks...the same seed from the old days that would have you save them, help them, free them....just to turn around and NOT return the love...or even worse, crucify YOU and pay the King to do it (of course, which the King would turn around and put it right back in the hands of the traitors because even HE recognized the "REAL" and the ultimate outcome...and didn't want the blood on HIS hands.  Hmmmm.....age old story.  Relived and played out....again.)

EYE AM RISING...out of Egypt.  EYE AM RISING...out of Hell.  EYE AM RISING...out of the lies spun by those who say "I have your back" when they don't even have their own...and they NEVER had YOURS; they just wanted YOU to believe so YOU could always "DO" for them and wait for...wait for...wait for.....nothing.  EYE AM RISING...out of too many dark days where too many blunts, too many drinks, too much coffee and too empty nights in crowded dark places could not help me find the balance or peace or breath EYE was needing. 

Thinking, it was a good thing EYE was a nurse's kid because "popping pills" was a turn off for me as a child....especially after reading in my Mom's medical journals what those things REALLY do.  There are a millions ways to go out the proverbial "back door."  Pill-popping and hardcore drugs WERE NOT gonna be one of them.  Hell to da naah!  Most didn't; but EYE learned from Billie...from Michael...from Whitney....or did EYE?

People look at the method of what kills a spirit and a person.  But what about the cause?  EYE was finding that the very thing which was taking me out faster than anything.......was a broken heart.  And too much trust.  And waaaaay too much stress.  "You have high blood pressure due to stress," said the doctor.  "NOT diet.  NOT obesity.  NOT diabetes.  Not your angina.  STRESS." 

Make no mistake:  STRESS KILLS.  Well, let's back it up a bit.  Stress can actually motivate you to do better; DISTRESS KILLS!!  Just like DIS-EASE kills.  And EYE AM RISING from ALL those things that "distresses" me and "dis-eases" me.  EYE AM RISING from "our" people and "our" community who have NEVER proven to be "MY" community.  So-called "brothers" and "sisters" that have NEVER been that to me, even when EYE tried my best to be a "sister/soror" to THEM. EYE AM RISING from people who live for the lie...and the image...and the fake camaraderie, but there is NOTHING of substance.  Thieves among thieves; snakes among snakes; ills among ills....and EVERYONE playing a "role" while feeling empty inside and being fed nothing of real substance.  AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT!!!

EYE AM RISING from folks who would EXPECT you to constantly do for THEM while they never think about doing ANYTHING for YOU except putting MORE work, MORE stress and LESS money on your plate....like YOUR bills and dreams are supposed to come second to theirs.  EYE AM RISING from folks who "think" they are getting away with the same ole "jedi-mindtricks," not realizing they were NEVER getting away with it; EYE was just giving them ONE MORE CHANCE before EYE cut ties completely to see IF by some chance they would be a REAL person and do the right thing.  Ahhhhh.....this lesson, however, was for ME to learn to accept (or reject) people as they are...and when they show you the pattern of how they are, it IS what it IS.  Don't change it; don't waste time; just kill them (Ooops...sorry.  THAT is what a soldier instinctively thinks of first.) or just walk away.  (THAT is what a soldier with a GOD-spirit thinks of 2 seconds later.  Praise GOD for the 2-second delay.)

EYE AM RISING from an alma mater that never was.  Maybe for 4 years...maybe.  But it was and is CLEAR that my Daddy on his dying bed was making perfect sense when he told me NOT to go there and to leave this place.  EYE will NEVER begrudge the "tradeoff."  Because for him, just like my husband, just like my Mother...EYE was HERE when the end came.  The sunshine in the rain and the peace in the pain.  The 24-hours before the end and the moments before my life completely changed. But now...there is NOTHING keeping me mentally or spiritually OR financially bound.  No "community."  No "people."  Nothing to ADD to my pot.  Just take away from.  It's always a "decrease" here.  Always...if you don't play the "plantation" game.  Remember when EYE said that you're either the bitch or the ho when you're trying ot do business in certain places?  Well the ho NEVER was and the bitch is exerting some "creative expression over depression" with some friendly fire and a final "toodles to the bad wind."  The mental and the spirit are already ascending.  And physical is just temporary condition to follow.  Once the mind and spirit's gone, there really IS nothing left, is there?

There is so much more to say.  However, saving the rest for the book.  And NO, the book will NOT be free....as this lesson has not been either.  Some are probably wondering why EYE am so transparent.  Some EYE am probably making nervous or a bit agitated right now.  YOU SHOULD BE!  Your lying fake nature speaks volumes....more than EYE can ever say.  It shows on your face and spirit without me even having to utter your name.  You can't run from who you are.  But EYE can walk away and RISE from you.  There is nothing to save....nothing to see....but me....and a destiny EYE had taken my eyes off of trying to look back just a little too much and too long.

And to that person that is truly getting the message delivered in this:  THIS was for YOU.  Take it...heed it...spend it as you will.  This "Moses" says "GOD Speed" as EYE head for better hills.  Yep...been to the mountaintop.  And unlike, Martin, EYE plan on getting to the other side and enjoying the heck out of it!!

And EYE would say it didn't take ME 40 years traveling in circles around the same mountain to figure it all out.  But in a way, it DID, didn't it?

My Pesach story.  And though EYE can't vouch for Moses', EYE can vouch for this one.  VERY REAL VERY TRUE....INDEED.