Waking up this morning and reflecting on the storms which have cleared away a LOT of the dry stale dust and dirt to reveal a newer fresher earth. And NO...EYE am not just talking "physically" but rather emotionally and spiritually as well. More storms to come. More cleansing to do. More "reveals" to surface. And as EYE sip my coffee, EYE think on this:
Support. The word has become nearly "foreign" in this day and age. It's changed. "Devolved" rather than EVOLVE. Just like hip hop...and poetry, the word has "cheapened" to a "support" a new mindset. And PLEASE correct me if EYE'm wrong. But give examples! Because, just like faith without works is dead, words without PROOF are empty.
"SUPPORT" has come to mean: "Help me to make MY life better because I'm too lazy...too privileged...too pretty...too cunning...too non-talented enough to support myself. And why should I when I have all of YOU to support me to do whatever I need to do. Oh don't think I'm gonna support back...because this is all about ME...and it is YOUR obligation to support ME because that's what you are supposed to DO....love and support regardless! It's the Christian way!"
HOLD UP! WAIT A MINUTE!!! First off, a LOT of this is coming from a generation that did absolutely NOTHING but plop out their mother's vagina. You don't LEARN. You don't LISTEN. YOU DON'T LOVE! YOU just WANT love...because....well, THERE be the question and answer of this decade, huh?!
And the fact that EVERYBODY and their mama's janitor can have a "GOFUNDME" campaign, whether it's legit or not, just makes it all the harder for those who really NEED support. And question... If YOU never supported ME in MY "GOFUNDME" efforts, tell me again why YOUR "dilemma" should be as important to me as my own?! Excuse me...EYE'm still climbing out from under all this manure that EYE allowed others to dump on me. (See? EYE took responsibility. What about YOU?!)
Digressing to progress: EYE used to support many. MANY. Until EYE found that support was not to be "reciprocal." People didn't want my "input" or "wisdom" or "honesty" or "ideas on how to become better." They just wanted my MONEY and TIME and CONNECTS. They wanted me to support their "movement" (or the lack thereof)...their "mission" (which seemed to ONLY serve them and no one else)...their "crazy" (yup...it's true...misery looooves company...and will pull YOU into the undertow of misery before they swim OR allow YOU to swim away). Hmmm.....EYE used to see people as EYE saw myself: Serious about what they do. About what they "say" they ARE. However, EYE realize now they were far more serious about something else. TWO things actually. The con. And the denial.
FLASH FORWARD: You may now see that EYE support very few "movements," with the exception of my own. OF COURSE EYE SUPPORT MY OWN MOVEMENT! WHO ELSE WILL?!!! Back to the point: EYE found that at the most critical time that EYE needed support, NO support was given! Well, let me be honest....there WERE a few. A wonderful and loving "choice FEW." And EYE thank you soooo much and appreciate you more than EYE can ever say.
But for those who wonder WHY a Queen chooses NOT to support "them"...promote "them"...make THEIR shit hot (when in reality, it's NOT...but that's YOUR lesson to learn)...to invite "them" into MY world and MY circle just so you can taint MY wine and turn it into some bad "kool-aid" and leave ME with an empty cup and no food on the table?! Naaah dawg...that ain't gonna happen! #neveragain
Just know (because others do). EYE came. EYE saw. And EYE received exactly what EYE needed to see from my experiences with some folk. The truth of THEM. And, though truth can be hurtful, it can also be the most freeing thing in the world. Never EVER allow someone who's irrelevant to YOUR happiness and YOUR destiny and YOUR evolution to come between YOU and YOUR prize. GOD didn't give you YOUR gift to squander away on "random squirrels looking for a nut." And Big Bro already warned you about casting your pearls to swine.
So now, Baby Sis...the Griot Oracle is reminding you once more: SUPPORT YOURSELF....because NO ONE will do that as much as YOU can or will. And you canNOT support yourself by putting a lot of unnecessary weight on your back. THAT will only tear you down and leave you in lack.
Ask someone who knows. And THAT is why EYE show you MY story. The majority of folks? Just "talkers" who talk that "lie." But the REAL walkers "walk" a life...and live to tell the story, showing you "how" and "why."
So the next time when someone asks, "Why don't we see Val anymore?" Remind them of a time when you USED to see Val all the time! And ask "them," "What happened?!" And wait...for the stutter...and the "backtracking."
THEN, go back look at all those actual pictures and videos and remember a time that "was"...a lesson for some and a blessing for others...and one step closer to the truth.
Ahhh...but as the movie saying goes: "YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH." Or can you? ;-)
GOoD MORNIN' U-N-EYE-VERSE! Woke up this morn with a clarity.
1) EYE have known...and KNOW some of the BEST people in the entire world. Best in spirit...Best in talent...BEST PERIOD! Honored and blessed by the ones EYE call "real friends." You mean so much more to me than EYE sometimes share. Only child, military brat, on my own for so long in this war type of thing. My apologies for not opening up sooner.
2) EYE have known...and KNOW some of the FLAKIEST FAKIEST PHONIEST FOLKS that have ever walked the earth! They'll smile in your face...steal YOUR gold...and stab you in the back like Cain. And they NEVER change!! It's a wonder they have 2 legs and don't crawl on their bellies. In fact, EYE'd actually prefer the "natural" snake because it's less dangerous in REAL life. But, as life is a balance, EYE give thanks for the lessons learned and not to be repeated. IJS...WHO in their RIGHT mind needs to be bit more than once by the same predator?!
3) EYE have seen some of the richest, smartest, realest and most compassionate folk living in a trailer park...and EYE have seen some of the poorest, "fronting-ness," incompassionate "soul-less" in denial individuals living in mansions. Ironic, isn't it? The balancing act once again. MONEY doesn't give you class. CLASS gives you class.
4) EYE have known...and KNOW...and ARE one of those folks who have given the shirts off their back, the food off their plates, the last dime in their pockets...only to receive "crocodile tears" and jeers from those who think you've changed when you see too many REAL people die in vain...so YOU decide to "change the game" and protect your OWN name and fame and live YOUR life to the fullest and happiest while focusing on YOUR gain. And these "other" folk...these so-called "Christian" folk who tell you it's the "Lawd's will" that you give until you bleed and you'll receive your reward once you "cross over" to the land of milk and honey are ALWAYS the ones "talking" that shit but they NEVER EVER walk that walk. NEVER!! WATCH THEIR ACTIONS! Or rather, the lack there of. Don't believe the smoke. There's no fire; just an entrance to hell led by those who promote it and profit off of it so well. IJS... Feel FREE to prove me wrong. Actually, EYE wouldn't mind that...for once.
5) EYE have known...and know...statistics. Death...prison...terminal unhappiness...walking zombies not even realizing they're already dead. NOTHING you can do about them. Try as you may, there really is NOTHING you can DO about them...because THEY don't do what THEY need to do. Their burden may or may not have started out "personal." But their lesson IS personal. And if YOU constantly take on THEIR burden and lesson, that becomes YOUR stressing and blocks YOU from YOUR blessing(s). Next thing you know, you've got TWO people drowning because once refused to swim on its own. Again, you don't have to believe. Just practice the reverse...and prove me wrong...for once.
6) EYE have known...and KNOW folk who stunt soooo much for public approval and attention...but do soooo little for personal comprehension and self-development. They long to belong to something...ANYTHING that makes them feel special. And they think that a status...a title...an entourage...a "look" is gonna do it. But after all of that, the most important "look" is the "look" from the inside. And that's why soooo many are afraid to be alone with themselves...because their self-conscious knows what their conscious refuses to admit: Got a LOT of shit you're trying to cover up behind that "status" and "look," huh?! *Refer back to point #2.
7) EYE have known...and KNOW folk who will share info like this DAILY for free...because they feel compelled to share the truth in a world which would rather prefer the lie. They actually TRY to make a difference...to their own detriment. No sacrament given to THEM; just sacrifices expected. And while truth is rejected yet once again, a "pimp pastor" and some Pharisee and Sadducee can make MEGABUCKS selling lies and "enslaving souls"...AND psychiatrists (who are often tremendously fucked up people themselves) will charge you a TREMENDOUS fee for the hour giving you far less wisdom for your stress. And yet the artist and activist who says, "Here's a pearl. Now pass it forward and throw a little in the cup so EYE can keep making this coffee and serving it up, if you don't mind" is supposed to feel OBLIGATED to save the WORLD for FREE and not themselves in the process?! GTFOOH And take that "Willie Lynch" philosophy and jedi-mindtrick with ya. It has little effect on "free and constantly evolving minds."
Yup! EYE woke up in total clarity this morning. But perhaps the main thing is....EYE woke UP! #doubleentendreintended
So many didn't...and haven't...and won't. #doubleentendreintendedagain