Then that means that EYE have done MY job for today.
And YES...EYE do it WELL. Check that...BRILLIANTLY! Check the car fax and the references!
REAL'ISDOM: Just because EYE make it "look easy," does NOT mean YOU can do what EYE do. YEARS of experience, training and naturally ability play out in full view. Fakes and "frenemies" just don't have a clue. The doors that EYE opened were for ME...and for you. Free riders, backbiters all stunting for position. Not ONE had my back while vying for my submission. Still MY mission was given from a much HIGHER power. How can EYE NOT SUCCEED in MY time and MY hour?! No need for insecure cliques or a flaky entourage. No need to be "small" when EYE was born to LIVE LARGE. No need for the love that never was there. It was MY lesson to learn to beware how EYE share. And in the midst of it all, the Queen rose from the fire. Stronger and wiser and inspired to fly HIGHER. With the motto: Think More. BE MORE. AND DO MORE... She shedded her ole dust and let it drop to the floor. And if ANY of this is making YOU feel "sumkindaway....."
Then that means that EYE have done MY job for today.
And YES...EYE do it WELL. Check that...BRILLIANTLY! Check the car fax and the references!
REAL'ISDOM: Never allow those who DON'T take your focus off of those who DO. Jealousy, insecurity and multiple failures to launch are NOT your concern unless it's YOU. If so, take a long look in the mirror...and correct THAT view FIRST!
If it's NOT you...but you find yourself dealing with it too much, YOU are in the WRONG place and space. Complaining about it...and trying to convince the crazy they're crazy is a waste and mistake. Yes, we "desire" a "family" of sorts. But you MUST be particular with whom you build "forts." People need "cliques" for a sense of belonging. But is it worth risking YOUR OWN GROWTH and sanity and blessing just to belong to something that is "stagnant" and "non-productive?" Is YOUR philosophy that a "bad marriage" is better than NO marriage at all?!
Then EYE guess we SEE the difference between pioneers...and followers. SOMEONE has to say "The Emperor has no clothes" and "This marriage is bad" and "This behavior is STUPID" and "This makes NO damn sense nor cents" and "This kool-aid tastes like poison" and "This weed AIN'T real weed!!"
Oh wait...kinda got off on a tangent (or maybe not....)
Anyway, salute to those who know and have the courage to make REAL "power moves" and under/innerstand a movement is about MOVING FORWARD and is NOT fueled by denial. LOVE is an "action word;" not one merely spoken for public display when it's convenient. And it's NOT about what "they" do or don't do. It's about what YOU do and whether YOU have the faith and courage to do it ALONE when the time comes and it's needed!
MANY "speak" it. FEW actually "BE" it. And if you truly open ALL of your eyes, you can clearly distinguish between the lies and those who are truly walking the WALK instead of talking the talk. Or maybe...it's just obvious to ME. Sight since birth...awareness since 3. Called on at age 7. Perhaps...it's an Oracle thing...and why it makes some nervous. Truth always has. But back to the point.....
When YOU walk the path that was destined for YOU and YOU alone, you might find a REAL home of folks with like minds and shines, ALL on their higher evolutionary grind...who, TOO, had to leave the crosses that were not theirs to carry behind. Like a thief in the night. They took their lantern and light....and left. And "raptured" their way back/forward to "heaven." ON EARTH as.....
It WOULD...if some of you would really learn to read AND discern FOR YOURSELF. Ahhhh....and there be the problem...AND the solution.
Sorry (or not) that EYE'm not your favorite or popular "moneybags" pastor...or your favorite control-freak leader of a so-called poet....or your "hood-rich ebonic-speaking rapper of the month" dropping these words. Just a poetic prophet...passing thru. And whether you were there for me, EYE was there for you. If YOU missed the message or the clue? It's NOT on me. Literally and physically.
Drops mic and moves on to the next field. No need to pay it backwards. EYE've already paid it forward. Harvest time...for ME. And mere mortal approval is NOT necessary; especially when it's approved by THEE.
REAL'ISDOM: One of the worst things you can do is allow someone else's jealousy, insecurity, ignorance and issues to stop YOUR roll to a happy successful life. THE WORST THING YOU CAN DO...IS TO STOP YOURSELF!
Don't be your OWN worst enemy and your best hater! Take responsibility for your life. BE RESPONSIBLE for your own faults. Know YOUR power...and don't be afraid to use it. And KNOW who you're dealing with and be REAL about that...even when that person is YOU. Hate has been there since the days of Cain and Abel. Same scenario: People get jealous over BS matters. Will even KILL over BS matters! But what does THAT have to do with you?! Are you letting that stop you from succeeding?! Are you letting a hater WIN?!
ARE YOU NOW THE PROBLEM?!
Stop blocking your own success by allowing hate to block and stop you and your GOD-GIVEN right to LIVE.
Let "them" hate you all they want. Who really gives a damn about an ignorant hater?! But don't YOU hate YOU. Get REAL. BE REAL...and STOP messing up your own shit!! Learn to truly and actively love yourSELF without apology or "pudding-minded peer pressure" from folks who NEVER put any of value into your pot.
If ya got haters, that means you're being UNIQUE and doing something different. If your best hater is YOU, then YOU got problems NO ONE can fix...but YOU.
STOP MAKING EXCUSES!! DON'T BE A HATER!!! BE YOUR OWN BEST FRIEND AND SUPPORTER...AND LIVE HAPPY!!
*NOT telling ya what EYE read. Telling ya what EYE KNOW...and proving. You can't save the world, but you can save YOU. And ONE seed firmly planted...is one that can blossom into another one.
GOOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING U-N-EYE-VERSE!!! This morning's 1st message from Da Oracle:
DEAR WHITE PEOPLE (especially and particularly the ignorant ones): YOU DO NOT WANT A "RACE WAR!" Contrary to popular belief and your undeniable arrogant error in your "supposed" superiority, YOU WILL NOT WIN!! Seriously....you will NOT win. Betta tell your "cousins" to back 'er down before they fuck it up for ALL of you. WE are NOT "yesterday's 'negroes.'" WE don't believe in marching and humming slave dirges, nor long for holding hands and singing, "Kumbaya" or "We Shall Overcome" with our proven enemy. WE don't pray for your "forgiveness." WE plan for your next bad move. And WE could give a FUKK about your opinions, your approval, your arrogance, your twisting of EVERY story and chapter of OUR lives, your "supposed" superiority which is really hidden inferiority that is destroying YOU as much as you "think" you are destroying US or your gotdamn fake-ass friendship!! Now, of course, this is not to EVERY white person. But if the boot fits, ram that bitch up your ass....REAL HARD!! Til the shit you're so full of comes flowing out in the RIGHT direction!! Consider it an "Oracle Enema," baby!!!
DEAR BLACK PEOPLE (especially those who choose to remain sleep and on their knees waiting for their white savior to "deliver" them and ALSO make yourselves such easy targets): WAKE DA FUKK UP!!! THIS IS NOT NEW!! People get killed EVERY DAY! JUST LIKE THIS! It's just media has taken THIS particular story and playing it out on EVERY outlet...and all these so-called leaders who haven't been "relevant" in a while (IF they EVER were) are now stunting for relevance again. (Watch them in a minute start a brand NEW agenda and ask for your support...AND MONEY!! But try to get these media hoes to YOUR town without the cameras rolling!! Good luck with THAT. Been there; SEEN IT!!)
And NOW, ALL of you are focused on THIS (something which happens EVERY DAY in "Hypocritical Town, USA) when there is some even MORE diabolical stuff happening behind the scenes that will not only affect Michael Brown's friends and family but will affect YOU!!! ALL OF YOU!!!
WHEN ARE YOU GONNA FINALLY DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO?!
ACCESS THE SITUATION AS A WHOLE...and stop being mislead by your emotions and THINK with your mind on what is REALLY going on here and WHAT is the MUCH BIGGER problem!
EDUCATE YOURSELF! Learn YOUR Constitutional Rights and how they apply to YOU...and DON'T be afraid to USE them. Don't wait til YOU need a lawyer. Start being YOUR lawyer (or get to know some REAL lawyers with PURPOSE) and start "policing"your own communities again. (Hell...THEY DO!) WHAT EVER HAPPENED TO NEIGHBORHOOD WATCH IN "OUR" COMMUNITIES?!!
TAKE CONTROL (and stop letting others control YOU...your finances, your thoughts, your actions, your children, your behavior, your education (or should EYE say MISeducation, your rise...AND your decline)
LEARN WHY THIS KEEPS HAPPENING! WHY...DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING?! ALL THESE BLACK PREACHERS...AND ALL THESE BLACK POLITICIANS...AND ALL THESE BLACK MILLIONAIRES...AND THIS STILL KEEPS HAPPENING?! And don't blame ALL of them when YOU walking around sounding and acting like Waka Flocka and Trinidad James or the "Ho of The Week" with bat wings for lashes and hair in EVERY color but your own and YOU think "ratchedness" is your climb UP the ladder and YOU won't listen to what people who REALLY KNOW are trying to tell you! TAKE RESPONSIBILITY THAT SOME OF YOU MAKE YOURSELVES EASY STATISTICS!!! How about turn that education UP and turn some of that bullshit DOOOOOWN!!! #sillyrabbits
GET YOUR "BANK" UP...AND STOP SPENDING MONEY ON STUPID SHIT THAT ADDS NO VALUE TO YOUR LIFE!! (Honestly....you scream "Revolution" yet you're still funding "massa" and not making a penny to put in your OWN pot in the process! Some of y'all some fickle, phony DUMB futhamuckers!!)
KNOW THIS: EVERY "BROTHA" OR "SISTA" AIN'T "YOUR BROTHA OR SISTA." EYE have learned the HARD way to look more at spirit these days rather than just color. SEE the "actions!!" WATCH the "patterns!!" This will CLEARLY tell you what and who YOU are dealing with. And if you choose to deny and get your ass trapped and crapped on, well...it's your own damn fault. NEVER let it be said that someone didn't try to warn you. Harriet Tubman didn't spend her final years on the damn plantation trying to free stupid slaves who chose to be slaves. DJango OUT, beeeeyotches!!!
STOP MAKING THE SAME MISTAKES AND DOING THE SAME THING THAT NEVER SEEMS TO LEAD TO ANY JUSTICE...except an apology, a handshake, a pat on the head and a cookie. Damn, Fido!!! REALLY?!
There is a FAR bigger enemy than "them." It is US. And when WE figure out WHO and WHAT "WE" are and STOP listening to those who continue to make you into something less and take control of our OWN destinies instead of ALWAYS buying into the "tricks," THEN...AND ONLY THEN...WILL THINGS CHANGE!!! It never has and never WILL start with "them." IT STARTS WITH YOU!!
And the sad thing is...."they" know it more than "us." Remember...JUSTICE really does means sometimes, "JUST US." This ain't new. And will NEVER be new. It's just new to YOU.
P.S. And if you want someone to take you SERIOUS, act...look...and speak like you're SERIOUS!!! CONFIDENCE doesn't NEED a gun! CONFIDENCE HAS GUTS! FEAR takes cheap shots and uses guns! But note: You better THINK TWICE about those bullshit "gun buy back" programs too. Ask yourself, WHY are they always in YOUR neighborhood and never in "theirs?!"
HOWEVER, FOOLS OF ANY COLOR shouldn't be allowed to even TOUCH a weapon. Celie finger on ALL YOU BITCHES!! EVERY SINGLE ONE. May your fingers AND your hands rot off just like your brains...and it just keeps going til you are DUST...DUST...DUST!! (says the vooooodoooo queen oracle)
MEANTIME...the REST of you? Please get a clue!! This is getting soooo very old and tiresome. Jeezus!!! (Oh, by the way, "he" told me to tell you that HE came...and left. YOU missed him. Why is that NOT a surprise?!)
Now...EYE'm sure the hate will come. The "truth tellers" are ALWAYS the enemy because STILL too many of you...MOST of you CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH!!!
And frankly, again...don't give a fuck anymore!! Said what EYE had to say. MEANT EVERY WORD. Unapologetic for the language OR the passion of MY thoughts on MY page. YOU got a problem with it? That's YOUR issue. Correct THAT!!!
But know this.....if you hate what EYE'm saying....THEN STOP ASKING ME TO SUPPORT YOUR SHIT!!! It doesn't go BOTH ways!! You canNOT deal with or build with folks who "hate" you and think something positive and real is ever gonna grow from a fake relationship with a false foundation.
And THERE we have it ALL in a nutshell. The shot heard all over the world!! BOOM!!!
REAL'ISDOM: We smile many times to cover up the pain. A pain that most care not or can't handle. And they expect you to keep smiling, regardless. Regardless of the hurt...regardless of the "slight"...regardless of the backstabbing...regardless of the hate...regardless of the unfairness...regardless of the drain...regardless of the never being recognize for what you did for them...regardless of your own trauma and drama and depression. People ALWAYS want you to keep "smiling" like you're some "Stepford Wife" --- oblivious to the REAL realities of the world or what's going on around you...AND them! They want you to keep "smiling" and being "hunky dory" ALL of the time because they're in denial themselves...or have yet to be engrossed in the woes of sheer agony that is indescribable...ONLY experience. They want you to keep "smiling" like everything is GREAT on the surface...when just below the surface things are gritty...shitty...bloody...ugly. EYE'm just saying...even OZ wasn't "OZ."
People who want you to keep "smiling" regardless aren't REAL...because you canNOT POSSIBLY keep smiling ALL the time. Go up to someone and stab them repeatedly. Do THEY keep "smiling?"
IJS In order to be really REAL with yourself and your own life in achieving happiness, you MUST separate yourself from folks who just aren't REAL. Fact: Some will NEVER get it. And some just don't WANT to. That would require some effort and work on their part. And better (and easier) to throw it up in the air and wait for a miracle cure than to actually be real with themselves and make some necessary moves or steps to progress or dealing with the REAL world.
All of that's to say...when you find the things that make you SINCERELY smile, you embrace them...you appreciate them...and you don't let them go for the things that never really did fulfill YOUR needs. In looking at Robin Williams, there by the grace of GOD go EYE. And EYE've been a little too close to that to go back to the things that put me in so much despair while dealing with my own despair. Some folks were never and WILL NEVER be good for me. GOoD for ME!! To ignore these epiphanies and lessons mean EYE give up my blessings for a ride back on the "hell train" expecting different results this time from the same characters doing the same things.
WTF?! HOW SERIOUSLY STUPID AND SELF-DESTRUCTIVE IS THAT?! CHOOSING LIFE!! MINE!!
NO APOLOGIES for those who don't see me now. NO APOLOGIES for growing and moving forward while others are standing still and spinning in their own tracks of insanity. NO APOLOGIES for sitting around and looking like EYE'm enjoying something when EYE'm bored senseless...and there is NO chance or change for growth because of others' insecurities or lack of abilities. NO APOLOGIES for those who feel EYE put myself FIRST for a change. NO APOLOGIES FOR BEING DIFFERENT, UNIQUE AND BE-YOU-TO-FULLY ME!! (If YOU can't handle all this brilliance, why should that be MY suffering to have because of YOUR limitations and limited expectations of ME?!) NO APOLOGIES for not catering to stereotypes. EYE am not here to be what YOU want me to be; EYE am here to BE what GOD blessed me to BE...ME!! (in ALL my forms, even down to my craziness. Just saying...YOU might not get anything from it. But the ones EYE am meant for DO. Purpose achieved!)
NO APOLOGIES for doing what makes ME happy and proves to be to MY benefit. NO APOLOGIES for cutting the cord of dead weight that was dragging me away from MY dream and into others nightmares. NO APOLOGIES for taking all MY time and MY efforts and MY "little monies" and investing in ME now. Let's be REAL: The ONLY thing you truly can depend on....IS YOU!! So you BETTER make sure YOU'RE straight FIRST!! Real world shit here!! Take this seed and plant it and grow it. Or starve later from the lesson missed. And don't come knocking on my door at MY harvest time looking for something "unearned." EYE gave you the seed. EYE am NOT suppose to nurture it, grow it, harvest it, cook it up and serve it to you TOO!
AIN'T NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT!!
Some people don't want "help" or "friends." They want "cheerleaders" to an ill-fated game they're playing with themselves...or want an audience for their "circuses." And some feel the need to belong so bad and feel they have nothing really going on with themselves that they cater to the "alpha energy" that pulls them away from a path they don't see down a road that was not theirs.
EYE'm thankful to ALL my folks who have ever been REAL with me and reminded me to FOCUS and "save self" instead of trying to save the world. Funny how people who do that never seem to fare well. But all the others who want YOU to do it for them will all say, "That's GOD's way." Then why aren't YOU doing it?!!!! *crickets*
Just saying....when you find what truly and REALLY makes you smile...sincerely smile...embrace that with ALL your heart and soul. NO ONE on this planet is YOUR GOD! So THEY can't tell you what GOD wants for YOU. That always has and always WILL be a PERSONAL connection between you and the Great Universal Source. And it will be proven, NOT thru your talk but thru your WALK whether you are truly connected or not and walking YOUR path.
EYE'm choosing the path that makes ME smile. And that's how EYE get over the hump....in ALL things! Side benefit: It's makes all those haters and naysayers go "Dammit to hell!!" And that TOO, makes me smile. In fact, makes me laugh!! LOL IJS Well...YOU know what EYE'm saying...... ;-)
P.S. NEVER been "Stepford." Never WILL. REAL talk.
It's a mixed bag of thoughts in the air and in my head this morning. STILL giddy from a wonderful week/weekend of acting and hanging around the type of people EYE truly LOVE being a part of. Been a minute. A looooong minute. And looking forward to more of THIS as this part of my talent repertoire has just never found the outlets to explore and expose itself in this arena until now. The talent? ALWAYS there. The places and people....were NOT. Once again....law of attraction and focusing on your own manifestation working beautifully. Note to self: Continue doing more of THAT...and dealing more with what IS and not trying to build on or grow or repair or correct what's NOT. Lessons learned; blessings earned.
And with that being said, the thoughts of Robin Williams comes to my head. And the many reactions of his passing. Some expected; some disappointed; some...just sad. Not just sad in a "sad" way but sad in a "some folks will NEVER get it" way.
So...you know me. Da Oracle. "There is no spoon." Rules are good. But some rules are meant to be bent and broken...especially when very heavy things are on the line and reality dictates the "rule" is far in the way of the REAL lesson. On a particular page, EYE was "inspired" to shed some "light" on the subject of depression and Robin Williams death....because a post was getting too deep...and some where getting WAAAAY misguided and oblivious to a much deeper subject. Wonderful and needed dialogue was going on....good or bad. However, the poster felt the need to delete the post because so much dialogue was going on. Too me? It was good that this dialogue was happening. It's dialogue that doesn't happen ENOUGH on depression. It's DEEPER...MUCH DEEPER than people think or can even imagine. As one poster said: "Six words can't express an illness that kills one person every forty seconds. And six million prayers won't cure it." Religion is NOT the answer. And what's truly sad is to see a very sick, twisted and sad set of dynamics that continues to raise its ugly head and shows why we are a society full of delusions and ills and a generation that's lost forever and too arrogant to see it or turn itself around.
RELIGION has become our new slavemaster!! People always want to feel like religion is a "cure all" to EVERYTHING. On the contrary, RELIGION is the cause for more wars and separation and "mindfucks" than anything else!! DO NOT GET SPIRITUALITY AND RELIGION TWISTED!! ONE IS YOUR CONNECTION WITH A HIGHER POWER....WHATEVER THAT POWER IS CALLED!! It has NO "one" name and it is NOT no "one prophet or person." It is a UNIVERSAL LAW of natural and ethereal events...and it occurs in EVERYTHING and EVERYONE whether you believe in it or not. It needs not "belief." It just IS. The "belief" part comes when WE figure out how WE are connected to it and how that wonderful power can flow and manifest thru our words and actions. And that can be done in a VARIETY of ways and forms.
HOWEVER...man/mankind (including woman/womankind) get shit soooo twisted and have to put stuff in a tiny little box to fit in their tiny little heads so they can make this EXPANSIVE wisdom fit in their tiny little brains...and don't understand that true spirituality is an ongoing process til you get...wherever you're go when you "transcend." And even THEN....its something more. We just won't know til we get there. All that's to say is...to think "Religion" can cure addictions or problems of ANY kind is such a flippant excuse to take YOURSELF out of the equation for your own responsibility and healing. And to think "religion" and your relation with GOD can "cure" depression is just plain STUPID AND IGNORANT!! Some of the most hard-core people (soldiers, actors, freedom fighters, griots) are some of the most GOD-LOVING (no matter HOW they view it or call it, it's STILL a respect and understanding of a HIGHER Authority/Power) people on this whole planet. But the things they have seen and been thru are not "cleansed" or "erased" or "eradicated" or become like they NEVER saw what they saw...been thru what they been thru...feel what they feel...JUST BECAUSE they say they "looooove and believe it GOD." THAT'S DELUSIONAL...and the thoughts of someone who's OBVIOUSLY not been thru enough to truly KNOW what EYE am talking about.
Oh but believe me.....you will. You will....EYE don't speak from what EYE read...or been told...or been programmed to think. EYE speak from what EYE KNOW!! What EYE have EXPERIENCED! What EYE am QUALIFIED to speak on. MY life. MY stories. MY very REAL reality. MY trauma and depression. GOoD Little Princess who had it all...and lost it ALL...in a fall not all to my making. And yet it was. Naivety and having no fear of playing with "snakes" can do a job on a person's psyche. Being brilliant...and realize ignorance seems to be preferred over brilliance can be eye-opening. To find "love" is not really "love" and, at the end of the day, you better grow some bigger balls and a stronger vagina and some thick skin and realize there is a REAL war going on...and you better realize that the MAIN person who has your back....is YOU. EYE KNEW that my Parents "had me." EYE KNOW that Baker "tried" to "have me." The problem was...he didn't always "have himself." And everything else? Well....let's just say...EYE depend on ME and MY "source" of Universal Power/Knowledge/Manifestation and EYE listen more to people's actions more than their words. Words....can fuck you up! Seriously! Especially when you don't resource the intention and source behind them.
That example EYE just gave is why you can get some of your most close-minded fanatical "Christians" to easily lose ALL their faith and beliefs when some very REAL tragedies smack them in their faces and severely whip their asses. All of a sudden, all that "bravado" talk means nothing...and they become confused to what's happening. YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING?! THE TRUTH THAT YOU DENIED YOURSELF!! YOU DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW BECAUSE YOU COULDN'T GO OUTSIDE OF YOUR BOX OF "KNOWING" AND YOU NOW REALIZE THAT LIFE...AND DEATH...ARE MUCH BIGGER THAN THE BOX IN YOUR HEAD!! DUUUUHHHHH!!
Sorry...sort of...for that bit of attitude. But you just get soooo tired of trying to explain something to folks who think they know everything and show they know nothing. And you're trying to do it...NOT for yourself...but in hopes that when their time of realization will come, they will be a bit more prepared.
BUT YA KNOW WHAT? You got to know when to hold them. Know when to fold them. And know when to let it go.
Which takes me back particularly to our current generation. We have a generation of "fad followers." "Lazy babies." Arrogant non-thinkers and non-talents who think just because they ARE that they KNOW and should be respected for their ignorance they CLEARLY show with everything they say and do. They don't know that they don't KNOW....and they don't CARE. YET, they expect those who DO know to "respect" their ignorance and not correct their insolence. And when WE find we can do neither and just leave them be to their own demise, THEN we be "hating" and don't want to "support" or "build" with them.
YOU CAN'T HAVE IT BOTH WAYS, YOUNGBLOOD!! EITHER YOU'RE WILLING TO LEARN...OR YOU'RE NOT! But NO ONE should be responsible for YOUR ignorance and arrogance when you totally disrespect the process that life is NOT just a rap video, a WorldStarr moment, a night at the Source Awards, a slam poetry experience, a six-word story, a good weed session, a "turn up" or a sitting on the front row in your mini trying to get the pastor's attention while the pastor (who's sniffing blow on the side) is looking at his wife's best friend with bedroom eyes.
IS THIS ALL YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE?!!! Then have at it then. Just saying....some people find their own ways to cope with the ever-growing madness. And some find they can never cope...and opt out. EYE...under/innerstand either way. Being ORACLE has nothing to do with it (or maybe it does). Being ME....has EVERYTHING to do with it. EYE don't deny what EYE feel or KNOW just because others can't go that deep. Your shallowness or your "surface-level" knowledge or friendship stops not my flow or quest for under/innerstanding the MUCH BIGGER and DEEPER picture. Your "close-mindedness" will not fill my "closed casket." So tell me why EYE should even give a damn about you like that?!
EYE'm just hear to drop seeds of reality and truth and awareness. Some pick them up and know what to do with them. Some are totally confused what they are. Some are just flat out jealous they didn't think of them in the first place. Some just kick them away like they're nothing....then long to find them when "their drought" hits. And some...are in fear of the seeds...because THEY know their is truth in those seeds. And with truth....some will awaken to what's REALLY going on and be free from the lie.
And then...right then...someone might heal themselves...and pass it on. Oh what a HORRIBLE thing is that happens.
Why EYE choose to be IN it...but not OF it. And when the disrespect and the arrogant ignorance and the close-mindedness comes, EYE drop the seed and keep it moving like Johnny Appleseed...never looking back...for my job is done. Take it or leave it alone. And the outcome from that point on is on YOU.
And yet...WHY is it when the shit finally hits the fan and the awareness FINALLY sets in, EYE am always one of the FIRST they come running to....and never seen to under/innerstand that all EYE can do is watch from a distance?
Not my lesson to learn anymore. You got me once. Not again. Off the cross...
Yeah....this is a LOT going on in this post. Pick and choose what was meant for YOU....because somewhere in this, there is a message for ALL.OH CAPTAIN, MY CAPTAIN....EYE UNDERSTAND! Brilliance is a blessing AND a curse...and one rarely understood and always criticized by eyes who only see what their minds allow them to see. Salute to those who SEE...and BE MORE....regardless. It's an art; it's a uniqueness...and it's done ONLY by a few. Thank YOU for bringing it WELL!! Rest In Peace
The irony is....EYE came off such a great week/weekend finding myself and revealing and restoring my passion for performing again through a character called "Lady Death." Who would have thought the role would play out in REAL life on another stage with another key performer.
Robin Williams...you will be missed. There was/is NO ONE on this planet like YOU. And it's in that uniqueness that can come a tragedy many may never understand. It's not easy....being..."different."
It is soooooo important that if you're going thru something "heavy"...or have gone thru anything tragic, it is IMPERATIVE that you limit your interaction with folks who drain your time, energy and spirit. It's common for the "pained" to attract the "pained." But 2 broken people canNOT heal each other. It takes EVERYTHING in your power to just heal YOURSELF. And please just don't think "turning it over to GOD" is the answer. That is such a short and "flippant" excuse to expect something or someone greater to do what YOU will need to do for YOURSELF. It takes courage. It takes FAITH (in YOU). It takes time. It take energy that many times you don't have. Which is why it's sooooo important to pull away from any and all things draining you. There have been many EYE tried to help. But at the end of the day, in order to help and heal ME, EYE had to pull away and spend MY time and MY energy and MY money and MY efforts to focus on helping and healing ME.....because NO ONE....let me repeat....NO ONE will help YOU like YOU will help YOU. Not even GOD....for that is just the fuel for your particular faith. But NOT the vehicle; that is YOU. And YOU better make sure you do as much "maintenance" on your "personal/spiritual vehicle" as much as your car or your house or your equipment.
And you better make SURE you find the peace that heals YOU....because everyone does NOT operate on the same gas. Faith is NOT a "one size fits all." It's about what fits YOU. And the more you pull away from people who don't "get it" or "get you," the more you'll find and feel what makes YOU tick and brings YOU peace.
Ahhhh....and there be the rub. Some don't want to go that personal within themselves. And that's where a very critical process of the journey is achieved...or aborted. Simple? Obviously NOT. Sometimes the inner mirror is the one people are afraid to face the most...and they use the "perceptions" or "approval" of others as a cover to block the truth.
Unfortunately, truth....like death....ALWAYS surfaces to tell the true tale. #gotstories?
Of course...EYE'm merely speaking from MY experience and what EYE know from MY own life and stories. Perhaps yours may vary.
And perhaps not. Perhaps....it's times like this you should take a moment...take THIS moment...to take a deeper look into YOU....while you're still breathing. Just a not-so-cryptic message from Da Oracle Val Jones
So REAL scenario. In the Big Lots parking lot. Looking at "Becky" and "Jenny" TURNIN' UP to some really hard gangsta shit...and they "swagsinging" like Izzy. Phone call. "Turn it down. It's Mom." Yup.
Moments later, EYE'm blasting my Mark De Clive-Lowe's "The Mission" from his CD "Church." Heavy stuff, laced with REAL lyricism and eclectic jazz...and the old white woman pulling up in the parking lot looking at ME like EYE'm "trouble."
That moment when U just want to go, "Bitch PLEASE!! Where were YOU when your grandkids were 'posing?!' Or you don't see the hypocrisy in THAT or the fact that YOU are CLEARLY the one ignorant to the facts here!!"
Just another day in "Black Land."
REAL'ISDOMS AND OBSERVATIONS: Being an artist is NATURALLY...but it is NOT easy. Especially when that is the career that's chosen you. Notice EYE said the career that's chosen YOU...because many paths and careers are chosen by those completely ONE with their spirits. It is the path that chooses YOU and guides you to your destiny. Look around. You can see clearer and clearer the difference.
Being an entrepreneur is CRAY CRAY. There are challenges like NO other. BILLS like no other. Physical...financial...emotional...spiritual...mental "bills" like no other. Debts that reckon to be paid and MUST be paid in order to be successful. People with nice "cushiony jobs" or something or someone to fall back on do NOT know the true meaning of the word "entrepreneurship"...or what it is like being a true artist for that matter.
Let me explain:
When you have to take those leaps of faith...
(Sidepause: Note EYE did not say "final" leap of faith...for there will be MANY. And if you're not "soldier enough" to follow through...well, there are some lessons YOU will NEVER learn about a very REAL side of the world. But EYE digress to progress...)
When you have to take those LEAPS of faith, you better be ready for the unexpected. And you better have Plan A...Plan B...Plan C...and know that Plan F might be the one needed. That Plan can be known by 2 different names, but essentially the same thing.
When all else fails, welcome to Plan F:
Plan FAITH (there is no spoon...there is no spoon)
Also known as Plan "Fuck It" (Did all EYE can do...TRULY; now let's turn it over to the Universe and something MUCH GREATER and expansive and older and wiser than ME and let's see what EYE learn from it.or what it is like being a true artist for that matter.)
EYE have often time found out that when Plan F is in progress, you learn a LOT about yourself as well as others. You have no choice but to learn now. Well...some never do. But that's the difference between those who plan on being successful in REAL terms opposed to those just "successful" in their heads.
Got a clue for you: Imagination doesn't pay bills and has NO debts in its name. But the "vehicle" imagination rides in....can take imagination far and watch it attract much wealth. Or let it sit in a cookie jar and turn to dust like that one old cookie at the bottom of the jar that's never been eaten.
People are interesting "beings." Some have imagination. Some don't. Some know how to work it. Some don't. Some love to watch others work it. Some copy. Some unite and build. Some destroy. And some...haven't figured it out yet. Note: Better hurry!
NOW....here's the even MORE interesting point: When you've figured it out...you can see who was REALLY supportive...and who was only supportive for the ride. Some will wanna say "Yeah I know exactly what you're talking about." No...NO you don't. Not EXACTLY what EYE was talking about. Experiences, like snowflakes, are unique and vary. MY path and every move EYE made under MY feet fit MY shoe print; not yours. However, my steps are there for you to see IF you choose to follow in the same direction and learn from my experiences. But KNOW...You don't KNOW "exactly" what EYE'm talking about. You can "imagine"...and "relate." But you don't KNOW everything EYE've gone through and what EYE'm still going through. MY life is NOT so easy a caveman (or cavewoman) could do it. And there be the difference...and there IS a difference.
That's what make artists and entrepreneurs so different than the rest. We KNOW and respect everyone's story of growth. Well.....those of us who have managed to keep our hearts and minds intact. Some got a little "twisted" and "lost" along the way. And the thing about being in the process of "Plan F?" It's a solo mission. Only YOU can find your way out...or in to your "heaven." No one can't do it for you.
No one will...no matter what they say. It's not personal. It just is what it IS.
Plan F allows you to see those cheering...those who are YOUR angels just waiting for YOU and your time of need and desire...and those mad because you "left the plantation" without them. Not that they wanted to leave. Their actions clearly suggested not. It's just that many "appear" to want you to do good...but just not better than them. Many "appear" to want to do good...but instead of completely making their own way, they'd rather jump on your wings.
EVEN if those wings are coming out of fresh fiery ashes, they jump on YOUR wings before you've even had a time to expand them completely and catch a breath.
And there...you have to initiate YOUR part in "Plan F." Flight.
Remember when EYE said Plan F is a solo mission. Your plane has been grounded. You've sat...thought...observed...prayed...meditated...even "medicated"...and repaired...and NOW, it's YOUR part in this process:
Give thanks for it all...and take FLIGHT.
AND HERE IS WHERE YOU SEE THE SALT FALL OFF YOUR WINGS.
EYE think the point has been made.
And the moral of this: When it's YOUR time to RISE and SHINE, don't hesitate. You've earned this flight. YOU've paid for the flight! Now SPREAD your wings...let the salt fall where it may....